Posted by katia on May 19, 2003, at 13:27:35
In reply to Re: What if it's just me?, posted by maryhelen on May 19, 2003, at 10:14:32
> It sure is nice to know we are not alone.
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> I woke up this morning in tears. I am so tired of my life wasting 'away', everything except the 60 pounds I put on while taking Remeron. I had a good response from Parnate and then I was starting to go down again so my pdoc wants to 'kick start' it. We tried the Lithium but I couldn't take the side effects and I am now starting out with, yet another med, Lamitcal to augment the Parnate. I am wondering if the Lithium was helping the depression. I hate these medication changes. I feel so dead inside and everything I do is a monumental effort. I went yesterday to visit with my daughter and four young grandchildren. Shouldn't that make me feel good? I know I love my daughter and grandchildren with all of my heart, but I don't FEEL it. I could make a list of what 'should' be good in my life. I know I am not a lazy person, more of a perfectionist, which has it's own problems. I could go days without getting a shower or brushing my teeth. Maybe wash the cups when I had none clean left to make a cup of tea, but, of course, I could go to the store across the street to get cigarettes. The store may as well have been 10 miles away.
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> Katia: I agree with you that it doesn't matter whether you have a job or not you're still miserable. I just returned to my job after 2 years and besides being depressed I now have the added stress of being the secretary in a busy school office and learning the four new computer progams I missed when I was away. This should be good. I am 51 and not at all computer savvy and even when typing this thread, I thought when I couldn't scroll down further I had gone on too long (which I probably have) but then realized you have to keep typing in the window to continue. My principal is going to love me. However, many people can become depressed because they can't find a job. We are all so different. One thing I am sure of depression 'holds our hand' no matter where we go or no matter how well we hide it.
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> Questionmark:
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> I woke up really down this morning and made myself get out of bed and come on the computer to get my mind off things. I read through this thread and your comment 'Sorry, I don't know why I just reiterated what others said. I just wanted to.' struck 'my sense of humour' and made me laugh and that I do not do very often. Thanks for getting my day off to a better start.
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> Hang in there Tapioca! We are in this together.
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> maryhelenI'd say if depression holds my hand, it's fingers are razor blades!
sorry to hear you're so down. good luck with the new job. computers are only intimidating at first.
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