Posted by DC on May 8, 2003, at 8:26:57
In reply to Enough, enough!, posted by pumpkin on May 7, 2003, at 21:05:51
> I've heard enough about Florida! LOL! Is there
> still room for a Maryland native? Born, raised,
> and probably will die here! Mountains on one
> side (husband loves), seashore on the other (my
> love)!
>
> Anyway, I'm still hanging on 20 mgs. of Lex and
> .25 mgs. of Klonopin. I'm totally off the
> depakote now- although my doctor doesn't know
> yet. It's been a couple of weeks, but I had to
> see why I was "hazy". Still main problem is
> depression. We were talking about light therapy.
> I noticed that during the cloudy days, I'm down
> more. Weird!
>
> I still go out every morning after I drop off my
> youngest at school. I need this, and I need to
> interact with others for awhile!
>
> Until college is over- I'm watching my 14 month
> old grand-daughter, and she's been a blessing to
> me!
>
> Sorta at a stand still with counseling. The
> sessions are getting further apart. Anybody else
> experienced that before? Which leads me further
> into realizing that my brain is playing a bigger
> role than what I maybe realized at the beginning!
>
> Still feeling tired during the day, and every
> few days- I'll sack out during the day. Don't
> know where this is coming from!
>
> At a standstill with my weight. I'm fine with
> this too- especially when you meet your husband
> at work, and get honked at with him in the car!
> Embarrasing, but liked it! Gets him jealous.
> I'm bad!
>
> Well, I want to try to work off the Klonopin
> in the near future. One step at a time though.
>
> As far as skin rashes, I don't have that problem,
> but- I am constantly "itching". Especially on
> my hands, and arms. This I have noticed.
>
> I also get bloodshot eyes (right one more than
> left), and am asked if I've been crying. I don't
> like that either. I know that I have allergies.
>
> Besides that- I'm hanging!
>
> For whoever is going on vacation- have fun!
> Watch the sun also. Skin cancer (I've seen), is
> not so great! Not a nice battle when it "hits".
> My mom has it bad. And my middle half sister
> has started too.
>
> I look forward to "weekend" vacations down the
> road! Think of me at the beaches you guys.
> Beach camper!
Ok, I won't bring up FL again LOL. But, I have
noticed that I am so much more tired during the
day lately. I am thinking about changing the time
that I take the Lexapro. Hopefully if I change
from taking just prior to work and when I get home
instead, this will cease the tiredness problem.
Some days I feel like I am going to need toothpicks
under my eye lids to keep them open. Today being
one of those days.As for counseling, it was suggested by my psychiatrist
that I should go and "talk" to someone. He gave me
the number to a psychologist, but I just haven't been
able to make the call. I "talked" to someone a few
times in Lauderdale and just pretty much quit going
cold turkey. I feel like a total idiot going and "talking"
with a complete stanger and never usually reveal enough
that might help locate my "problems" and hopefully
correct them. Not to mention the whole social anxiety
issues I already posses and I am a better listener.
I know that I have major issues with getting close
to anyone and can't even begin to to tell you how
low my self-esteem is. Even though I get asked all
the time how can my self-esteem be so low? But, quite
honestly I just can't stand hardly anything about
myself. Anyhow, any suggestions on how to go about
starting to go and see someone to "talk" to and to
make the experience easier to handle?Ok, rambled on enough. Always been easier for me to
write. Should have become an author LOL.DC
poster:DC
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