Posted by blah on February 25, 2003, at 15:16:36
In reply to Re: Near the end.Blah, posted by jaby on February 25, 2003, at 10:02:51
> I would strongly consider talking to you doc about ECT. I have seen it save my sister's life.
I believe that ECT would make things worse for me, the way it did for androog. My primary problem is not depression but missing parts of my personality. ECT won’t fix that, and my therapist agrees. Also, it is permanent and many believe it’s temporary antidepressant effects is only the result of shock from brain trauma. It doesn’t make sense for me to try something so irreparable, that will have such temporary results before I try Ultram or another opioid. I won’t be receiving it for a while, and am not sure how to hold out till then. The Emergency room can only isolate me, shame me, and keep me away from my order. What I feel is chronic not temporary, it only gets better with extreme social support, and even then only for a few hours after that support stops. My therapist said its like being fed, and I guess it is. I’ve been “fed” so little in my life. All of these “approved” psychiatric drugs seem to take more away from me, not give things back, and I don’t have much left that I can give up.