Posted by fuzzymind on December 22, 2002, at 23:17:53
In reply to Re: CAN'T STOP THINKING, posted by Rayne on December 20, 2002, at 10:26:40
> I've never been tested for depression or any disorders, but lately I've been thinking more that there is something there. So many thoughts sometimes that it bothers me when people talk b/c it makes it that much more impossible to keep everything straight. I can't do math b/c I can't stay focused enough to concentrate on all the numbers. Sometimes I just scream as loud as I can to releive my stress. Everyone else I bring it up to doesn't seem to understand the severity of it sometimes. It's not like I hear voices, I just think...way too much...about everything. I've been blessed with a boyfriend that can talk about things when they're not right...but my head spins so fast sometimes that I don't know what I want to say or when I want to say it...so 1/2 the time I say nothing at all, and it makes everything worse. I can't stand talking about it to anyone that couldn't possibly ever comprehend what it's like to worry, to think, to DWELL on the unnessesary (sp?). I hate knowing that certain subjects should not plague me the way they do...but I can't stop it, I can't just turn it off. When someone tells me to "get over it" it's more like I go over the deep end b/c I know I need to get over it, and I want to...I just can't seem to shake certain thoughts. I know I'm ranting and raving, and I know how much I hate having my mind swirl into a million minute oblivions...it's at least slightly comforting to know that I'm not insane (like I thought I was until I read some of your posts), I'm probably quite normal, and to know that every way that I'm feeling, there's other people that can relate.
12 years ago when I dropped out of college, and out of life and society, I used to scream all the time to get images out of my mind an to relieve stress as yu said. I o it, but lesss frequently. Can't get those abusive, traumatic thoughts out of my head. I want to die
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