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SSRI-Apathy or evolving depression?Opinions sought

Posted by cab on October 24, 2002, at 16:04:03

Here's the situation. Last month I was in a mixed-state-type depression (nightmare quality, terrible anxiety, etc.) for about 10 days. Then I started Paxil and Zyprexa (and came off effexor), and stayed on lithium, which I was already on. Now, 2.5 weeks later, the terrible anxiety is gone, but there's this new feeling in its place that I've never had before, at least this strongly -- and I'm wondering whether it's run-of-the-mill depression (in which case I should stay on the Paxil for a few more weeks to see if it kicks in), or if it could be the SSRI-induced "apathy" I keep hearing about (in which case maybe I should change meds).
The new feeling is a pervasive sense of futility that accompanies all my thoughts and actions. For example, when I take a shower I can't help thinking about how pointless it is because I'm just going to get dirty again (ditto for washing dishes and clothes). Also, usually I enjoy learning new things, but now this thought intrudes that says, "What's the point of storing knowledge? You're just going to die sooner or later, and then it'll be wasted." Now I know these are ridiculous things to think, but I can't help these thoughts, and they've gotten worse over the past week.
The only reason I suspect it might be more than plain old depression is that I've been depressed several times and I've never felt this way before. Also, I don't have my usual depressed symptoms, like crying and anxiety. Do other people have depressions that change so much without getting much better? Is this (the futility feeling) typical in depression?
Any thoughts are greatly appreciated.


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