Posted by Ritch on September 2, 2002, at 10:03:22
In reply to ECT-I am feeling worse..., posted by Chloe on September 1, 2002, at 17:17:28
> Hi All
> I have had 5 treatments of ECT, and I think I am worse off than I started. After the first three, I was feeling pretty good, giddy, silly, happy. Then treatment #4 I had a really uncontrolled seizure that lasted 114 seconds. I woke up really confused and my memory felt like it was erased. It's rather disconcerting to lose your memory, but in the beginning it was fun. Now I feel scared and lost and more suicidal than ever. I have nothing left to loose. Everything that can be done for me has been tried. Maybe I just wasn't meant to live on this Earth.
> I am off the Depakote and Neurontin. That is a big relief to me. But the small amount to of Li, doxepin, Celexa and valium just isn't cutting it. What the hell am I supposed to do now? When the treatment of last resort didn't even work...
> I am scared. And I am not sure who I am anymore...
>
> Chloe
Chloe,Some of your current symptoms may be the 'hangover' from the ECT treatments. From what I understand it takes a few weeks after ECT before your memory can start to become accessible again. It sounds like some depersonalization experience to me, anyhow. Try not to let your thoughts get stuck about (treatment of last resort). There are some other options that you haven't tried, MAOI's, thyroid augmentation, etc.
sorry you are having such
a harsh time,Mitch
poster:Ritch
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