Posted by Fiddlepuppy on July 9, 2002, at 21:40:44
Hi,
I have never been diagnosed with BP disorder. I have been treated for depression and anxiety since 1989. This came out of the blue and knocked me down back then. I have never recovered. My anxiety levels stay so high! I am completely irritable and grumpy all of the time. I never want to do anything or feel up to anything. Last February I began having a lot of muscular pain and was placed on Neurontin by a pdoc. I was already on Zoloft. Last April I attempted suicide and was put into a great institute in Ga. There I was placed on Serzone, Buspar and Wellbutrin in addition to the Neurontin. The Pdoc at the intitute wanted to take me off the Neurontin but left it there for pain killing purposes. I stopped the Serzone in December because I am sick of all these meds. I went from one med to 5!
The problem is that I tried to get off the Neurontin in December of last year. I think the Neurontin is making me worse emotionally. Although the Neurontin was tapered off over several weeks the minute the Neurontin was stopped I started itching. I itched severely for 3 solid weeks. I could not sleep and my anxiety level skyrocketed because of the itching. The minute I took the Neurontin even at a dose of 300 mg when I was on 2400 mg before, the itching stopped. needless to say my new Pdoc (I moved) wants to keep me on it now. He thinks the itching was anxiety! Well I have had anxiety for many, many years and never had that happen before. Basically, I feel overmedicated, high, my short term memory is shot, my anxiety level is very high, I am constantly irritable.
Does anyone see anything here in my post that would appear to be a problem? I don't know if my dx is incorrect. When I was in the hospital last year my dx went to Anxiety, Major Depression, PTSD, DID, OCD and Personality Disorder NOS. But I know something is bad wrong. My meds are wrong or something. I was nowhere near this condition before the Neurontin. I believe that was what made me suicidal. My anxiety had become unbearable. I stress out over the least little thing!
Thanks for your reponse
poster:Fiddlepuppy
thread:111888
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