Posted by paxvox on May 16, 2002, at 19:33:19
In reply to Re: Methadone for Depression? » paxvox, posted by Lisa Simpson on May 16, 2002, at 6:42:58
Well, Lisa, I guess you have to decide which "evil" bothers you more. But first, you never answered about the acetaminaphen. Does your codeine have ACP in it? That really concerns me because of the possibility of liver damage.
OK, here goes..... You could choose to continue on as you have been doing, 20 years is a long time to live a certain "style" of life (i.e. very hard to change your ways). However, it doesn't sound as if you are really happy with that.
You could decide to get clean and sober, and find some other medical treatment for your depression and other ills. In the U.S., we have a rapid detox process that is available. Basically, they sedate you with benzos (most likely Versed - which is midazolam HCL) then they take you off your opiate/opioid quickly. You are kept sedated during the process (where you otherwise would be suffering withdrawal, DT, etc... if conscious). I don't know if you do this in the UK, it's not "readily" available here unless you have the $$$ to pay for it. A lot of insurance companies will not cover it.
The success rate for this process is about 75% w/o relapse, as long as the person WANTS to be clean. One would obviuosly need a strong support group to have this work.
You say you have no one to help you? Why? I'm sure you can get some sort of counseling can't you? You may not have a close personal friend etc...and that DOES help, but there HAS to be someone. You have to look until you find one. Again, you have to be motivated to WANT to change.
Personally, I would think it MORE depressing to be addicted to narcotics and/or alcohol than to have to take "conventional" antidepressants. Again, I must say I DO KNOW about how both can make you feel (or NOT feel?). I gave up drinking in July of 2000 after about 20+ years of fairly heavy consumption (24 beers a week). I quit cold turkey. I have "enjoyed" the occasional narcotic ride, but have never been addicted to them, so I really cannot be too subjective about that.
Basically, it comes to: "Do you want to be healed"? I know that sounds so stupid, and obvious, but the answer is not that simple. Some people choose to remain in their "known hell" than to take a chance for an "unknown" possibility. To put it in graphic terms, you get used to the smell of your own sh*t.
So.....that's about all the tidbits of "wisdom" I have to offer. I am interested to hear what you think, and ultimately, what you choose to do.