Posted by Janelle on March 18, 2002, at 17:05:02
In reply to Another trial. Topamax? Help., posted by BarbaraCat on March 18, 2002, at 14:26:37
Barbara,
You are describing much of what I am also going through (misery loves company?!!) I am also SOOOO sick of this. I'm sick and tired of feeling sick and tired.
I am the SAME way as you - I'll feel better for a few weeks, get my hopes up, only to crash again. I've been told that this is a form of cycling, although I never feel high (not like hypomania and definitely NOT mania). I seem to cycle between feeling good and feeling depressed (and anxious). Like I'm on a roller coaster (and I wanna get off!)
Like you so well described, I also "blob around" (more like I'm dragging butt)and particularly disturbing is that I've gone from being a very alert, organized person to being absent minded, forgetful and my memory is shot. I'm also tired, anxious, depressed and discouraged about life.
You mentioned that you are a dancer and yoga instructor -- when you get depressed are you able to work? I'm not.
My brew has some things in common with yours and I have a question for you about the Lithium - do you get your blood levels monitored regularly?
I was going to do Lithium but got concerned about having to monitor the blood levels, etc., plus my pdoc said there are newer meds (like Lamictal) to use as mood stablizers with fewer side effects, so that's what I've just begun to titrate up on.
I'm sorry I don't have any suggestions for you and that all I did was ask you a few questions which I hope you'll answer here. I wanted to let you know that you are not alone, and that someone (ME!) is feeling A LOT OF THE EXACT SAME things you are.
-Janelle
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