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My EXPERIENCE with PaNiC aTTaCkS

Posted by Panic_Attack on March 12, 2002, at 15:24:59


I dont get the... OH NO IM GOING
CRAZY... i get dizzy... weak.. sick.... heart pain.. etc. etc. its awful.
This might be long but i HAVE to talk about it. I could not sleep last
night. I was fine until I laid down. My heart beat began to speed up..
my eye lids were fluttering... i tossed and turned for 1 and 35minutes.
I finally took my sleeping aid {remeron/serzone and it eventually knocked me
out. Xanax does not help me sleep.. it just helps calm me down. My
attacks are so bad that id have to take 3 xanax's. Anyways.... i had to wake
up at 7am for work and i was miserableee.... felt like i was going to
PUKE all day. Just got home about 15 minutes ago. It was horrible. My
mom picked me up and began screaming abd bitching like usual and i lost
it. I started screming... my heart was racing.... i opened the door and
almost jumped out. I broke her air vent in the car. I punched her real
hard on her arm. I wanted to kill myself. i went pyshcO! My mom is so
NOT supportive about my panic attacks at all.. She has tried to get me
help but she always tells me " If I told my parents that I had panic
attacks they would throw me in a mental hospital." "You just want
sympathy" "You cant expect to get specail treatment Cynthia just becuase you
have panic attacks does not mean people should kiss your ass" That is
what made me go crazy in the car! I DONT WANT TO FUKING SPECIAL
TREATMENT... i just want HELP!@ Do you think I WANT to feel like this? Did I ask
God to make me "mental"? NO.... I dont ask for special treatment from
others... i just ask of you not to make it like panic attacks are
bull$hit and that im looking for attention... yah right. Anyways... im so
upset. My mom just called Jackson Mental ward and told them im crazy and
need inpatient help....etc,etc, and she told them that I expect people
to treat me "special" and i want everybody to kiss my ass. i WISH TO GOD
i had insurance so i could get some medication. I need a pyschiartrist.
I WANT HELP.. i have tried all local county things..etc... but never
got anywhere. If I was rich I wouldnt have this problem. ANyways... sorry
i am babbling... I always said that I would never wish a PANIC/ANXIETY
attack on MY WORST ENEMY.... im begginning to think twice about that...
i want MY WORST ENEMY and "certain" other people to see exactly what
the fuk i go through and have to put up with so they will shut da fuk up
and stop making it seem like we all make up PANIC ATTACKS. Last night I
went to eat at a Italian Restaurant here in Florida and our waiter was
the most amazing "MAN" i have EVER met. I went with my best friend
Christina who also suffers from panic attacks. She has them just as bad as
me but deals with them alot better than me. She has a supportive
husband. I have a MOTHER that all day. ANyways... Our waiter began
talking about his roomate and how she has panic attacks. We were shocked.
You dont meet to many people that have this, you know? He told us
everything.. how horrible and bad they are.... how she cant get no help
either. She tried PAXIL but it made everything worse... {like me and we
gave him our name and # to give her. We are planning on starting a PANIC
ATTACK group here in Miami/Ft.Lauderdale. That would be so cool. To meet
other people that experience this $hit and we could all have panic
attacks together :) Well have some tea and a bowl of XANAX's for
refreshments . hahaha.... Well I KNOW NOBODY READ ALL THIS.... i hope you all are
feeling ok... actually.. i hope you all eventually overcome this
HORRIBLE MISERABLE "physical" disorder. GOD BLESS.
*Cynthia* 21 F Miami Beach, FL


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