Posted by Mark H. on February 11, 2002, at 19:53:10
In reply to How does a person handle AD use??, posted by johnj on February 11, 2002, at 16:53:29
John J
I just want to remind you that what you're feeling is a *symptom* of depression that perhaps falls under the broad category of "inappropriate guilt." My symptoms came on shortly after Polly Klaas had been kidnapped, and I woke up at 4 a.m. feeling guilty that I hadn't prevented it (it didn't occur to me at the time how grandiose that thought was).
A year later, when I finally gave up on my GP and went to see a psychiatrist, I was so embarrassed and ashamed that I paid in cash so that the ladies at the Bank of America wouldn't see my check made out to Dr. Tessler.
A few weeks after that, I was put on Effexor and began to improve. As soon as I felt even a little better, I wanted to tell everyone I met what a great experience it had been to work with Dr. Tessler on finding the right medication. The concern I had about seeing a psychiatrist and about taking "drugs" for a "mental problem" just evaporated as soon as I began to feel better.
You're not a bad person for needing to take meds! In fact, when you and your doctor find the right mix for you, you'll regain your positive perspective about the experience and feel mostly gratitude.
You hang in there, OK? This awful feeling will pass.
Best wishes,
Mark H.
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