Posted by WhiteHare on January 31, 2002, at 21:39:12
In reply to Re: Why Were We Chosen as the Ones to Suffer?, posted by OldSchool on January 31, 2002, at 21:17:37
> > Why were we chosen as the ones to suffer? Why must I endure days on end of depression and anxiety? Instead of spending my time with hobbies, family, career as others do, I spend it with psychiatrist, social workers, pharmacists. I spend it trying to fix my brain. Oh, just to feel again .... to laugh, cry, love, daydream. No, just pain. This is the path God has chosen for me. Why I was chosen, will never know. Why I would trade my life for just one normal year of existence, just one year.
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> You werent "chosen to suffer." You just have had the bad luck (and the genetic susceptibility) to develop severe depression problems. You got nailed by a serious brain based disease, which is too often trivialized and not even treated as if its a real, physically based illness. This illness you have, which is brain based always remember that, is poorly understood scientifically. Like all brain based illnesses, much stigma and stupidity surround it.
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> The fact is that the science people just dont know much about the human brain. Hence the inability to successfully diagnose and treat many severe forms of mental illness. Brain science lags behind other branches of medical science.
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> Old SchoolSometimes I get very upset and depressed and wonder WHY WHY WHY. I remind myself that I wasn't choosen to be tall, brown haired, and brown eyed, my genes just worked out that way. I wasn't choosen to be mentally ill, that's just how things worked out.
Then I remind myself that I can choose to be active in my recovery, treat myself well, eat healthy, avoid alcohol and drugs, and be the best me I can be. I can be only me. No more and no less. I do the best I can and hope that it's enough.
But I still go through the WHY WHY WHY sometimes.
I don't know if that helps. Sometimes it helps me just to know that someone else feels the same way I do. I hope my comments helped you.
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