Posted by manowar on January 17, 2002, at 16:29:00
In reply to Re: Anyone reached the feeling good stage ? » sid, posted by kid47 on January 15, 2002, at 11:59:43
> Howdy. Good question. Over the past several years I have had limited success with meds. On the few occassions I have had a positive result it was an astounding "moment of clarity"! I felt a sense of well being & peace of mind. The darkness was peeled away & things that previously had been so troubling to me suddenly became non-issues. I was motivated & social. I wasn't always exhausted. The ever constant obsession with how I was feeling disappeared. I felt truly connected with myself & the people around me. I could express myself. I could easily make simple decisions that I used to agonize over. I understood the phrase "It's good to be alive." I was interested in stuff. I went out. All this was in a relaxed state of mind. Other than being a bit giddy (but not manic) from finally climbing out of the pit of despair, I was reacting, I believe, as "normal" folks do, to day to day living. But alas. After several days or weeks it all comes CRASHING down again. That is the cruelest part. You get a glimpse of a real life & then you're sucked back into the murky depths. Sorry. Didn't mean to be so dramatic & long-winded. It's just so devastating to realize what I am missing. But I do have hope that someday there will be proper treatment to destroy this demon. Take Care
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> kidHi Kid,
Man, for a minute, I thought you were writing about me! "The ever constant obsession with how I was feeling disappeared." I'm with ya. That really sucks! Thank God though for: 1) Klonipin 2) those moments of clarity, without those memories it's hard to think you'll ever feel better.
--Tim
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