Posted by sjb on January 11, 2002, at 9:22:54
In reply to Re: WHY are we all so 'chemically challenged'?, posted by OldSchool on January 6, 2002, at 16:36:29
I always read your posts and would like your advice. I'm sick and tired of all the past 6 years of "conventional" mental treatment. All the drugs, the appts, let's try this, let's try that and just feeling like another upper-class, white female w/ "major depression" and "eating disorder NOS. Blah, blah, blah, blah. I need help and feel shortchanged, gosh dang it!!!
I prayed so hard not to wake up this morning after days of bingeing on crap food and wine. Alas, I did. Came to work looking a like a bum, in part, 'cause of weight gain and business clothes no longer fit. Tired of binge eating, crying, isolating, trying again and again to get into marathon shape. Used to be an athlete.
I do not know where to turn. I no longer have the patience to try yet another drug or a different dose, etc. My cravings for sweets overwhelm all my goals. I'm sick and tired of trying to will myself better. Don't want to go to eating disorder place. Been there, done that. Lots of teenage anorexics and I stick out like a sore thumb, like "Why are your here?" Have to go to bathroom in a "hat", have to let nurse flush when you do #2. Not allowed to go out and excercise. Given a bunch of Zanax if you get too upset about not being allowed outside and then scolded if you start falling asleep in group therapy which ends up in additional restrictions. . . .I digress.
My original question was just to ask where I could get a brain SPECT on the east coast. I read the Amen book and liked it very much. I seem to recall in the appendix that there was someone from the Wash DC area but I'd prefer Phila/NY area. Anyone have any ideas?
I'm taking the rest of my Adderall (not much - was only given 10mg per day), stopping the Celexa and stopping my PDoc appts. Have no idea where to turn and don't feel like I'm even worth it anyway.