Posted by shelliR on November 28, 2001, at 19:36:13
In reply to Re: Morphine for depression. » shelliR, posted by Elizabeth on November 28, 2001, at 16:06:52
> > Can your family always tell when you're depressed? Is there that big a difference in your behavior toawrd everyone?
> You make it sound like you can usually "fake it."
That seems like a strange thing to say to me.. I've never used the term fake it and I don't even think in those terms.
I can up to a point, but when the depression gets really bad, I can't really hide it (and often I don't even care about hiding it by the time it's that bad).
There are times that I am so severely depressed that I stay in bed all day, mostly sleeping. My cat loves it, I am like a big cat mom. But the stimulents make that a lot more difficult now (for better and worse). I find it amazing how I am able to come out of my depression (like when I am shooting, or even clients are over). I don't feel like I'm faking it; something happens, perhaps it's a good dissociation, where I don't feel anything about myself, including the depression. There were a few photo sessions before I went into the hospital in July, that that I could feel my depression (actually more of an irritation) for the first time, I thought that could never happen. That was shortly before I went on oxyconton.
Mostly I am able to come out of my depression enough to be civil, like if I had to run out to the store and see someone. But I live alone, so that makes things very different. When I asked the question to Lorraine, I meant do her children always notice the depression, or do they go right on chatting about themselves like teenagers generelly do.(Actually, I get the idea that her son is not a chatterer. And I waw also imaging that her husband knows but maybe you just go on many times as if you were not depressed.
What about your SO, Elizabeth? Do you consciously make an attempt to separate sometimes from the depression with him, not to fake your mood, but just to avoid, sort of let your relatiohship distract from the depression. Does he *want* to knew all your moods.
Are you still doing well on your meds? And is your SO's depression still pretty much in remission since he started, was it remeron?