Posted by Anna laura on November 17, 2001, at 1:18:48
Hi all,
I've been feeling better lately: i still have to come a long way before i reach the mountain top, but still, it was a looong time (five-six years) since i've felt this way:
I'm taking Effexor (300 mg) plus reboxetine (8mg. which is the average dosage: full dosage is one more tablet which is 12 mg). I started effexor the last week of July after failing a trial with levosulpiride that made my depression worse by raising hormons in my system. I added reboxetine the first week of September. Strange thing is that i began to experience an appreciable shift only a few days ago! I read somewhere on the board that long term chronic dysthymia requires longer periods for the AD to kick in: may be this is the case, i don't know.
Anyway, i need an advice on this: i'm feeling better in the morning. The good feeling fades away as the day progresses: by the end of the day the good feeling is faded out and my mood is flat again. My optimistic attitude is destroied then and i fall back to my old negative thoughts pattern: like i'll never recover and things like that.
It seems like this subtle- but -good- enough feeling is very very fragile and vulnerable to stress: if i have a fight with my spouse , if i do too much housework, or if i worry too much and start ruminating the feeling slips away.
I feel like a light bulb not functioning as it is supposed to, switching back and forth from dim light to darkness. It's very frustrating. At times seems like recovery is at reach if only i persevere and don't stick to my old habits ( like laying on the couch and watching tv instaed of going out with friends, etc.), other times i feel there's nothing i can do to hold this feeling: it just dissipate in my on hands like the snow when it's melting away.
Years ago when i felt like this i made a mistake: i didn't worry much about it and sticked to my old habits: the outcome was that within a year my mood became flat and couldn't do anything to regain my previous mood state.
Do you think that this state could be influenced by external events, like switching my life style and get back to "normal" life, or do i need an augmenting therapy? And if it's so, which kind of augmenting therapy do you suggest? John L, Chris K, anyone?
Any input will be appreciated.Anna Laura
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