Posted by Phil on November 10, 2001, at 16:30:54
In reply to Re: I want to die, posted by Delphine on November 10, 2001, at 13:52:35
"I just really want this bad feeling to end and right now the idea of not waking up or just ordinary suicidal fantasies cheer me up somehow."
Delphine..Well, I'll be damned, glad to hear from you and more about you.
Delphine, your quote above perfectly describes the way I've felt, on and off, for as long as I can remember. I had this fantasy in my head for years of a meteor(ite?) hitting my house. Flatten me like a bug. So comforting that thought.
Depression is my life. I've driven my friends crazy, my brothers, my employers; dating is the most foreign concept I can imagine right now.
But somehow, I've got this dumb-ass notion that it's all gonna be worth it. And some days, I can still laugh my ass off at something, my sex life, for example.
How much Ritalin are you taking? I take 10 mg 4-5 times a day. It really helps augment most anything you take.