Posted by adamie on November 9, 2001, at 22:10:14
In reply to I want to die, posted by Delphine on November 9, 2001, at 18:08:08
hi Delphine. want to get married? just a possibility. I too am feeling a bit hopeless but in the end I think I will survive. take care
> I want to die. I don't have any plan or anything. I just feel that way. I don't want to tell my doc because I'm afraid he'll be disappointed after all the effort he has put in me. And I have betrayed him. I said I wouldn't drink and I have. I said I would respect my prescription and I haven't. I was hoping "this" (this evil depression) would go away a month ago so I didn't say anything. It hasn't. What now? I think I should call the hospital, maybe. But then I'll be a huge fucking disappointment and they'll put me on APs or something. I don't want that. I would rather die.