Posted by JohnX on October 19, 2001, at 0:54:16
Hi all,Well, I've had another what I would call "an awakening".
It reminds me of the movie "Awakenings".
I feel like a hand from above has yanked me from point
A (crapper) to point B (where the rest fo the world
lived. I have had a breakout from dysthymia/anhedonia
that includes *recapturing my emtions*. I feel connected to
the world again! The last time this happened
was 2.5 years ago (on St. John's Wort) and it
lasted only 3 days.After 2.5 years of struggling, and a huge list
of medications, misdiagnosis, therapy, etc. and severe
phsyical pain on top of the mood problems,
I seemed to have hit the jackpot. I really hope this
doesn't fade. My core diagnosis is ptsd with bpii.
Anyways, I have had spurts of manic europhoria during
this 2.5 year time span, but never had a feeling of
"well-being" and being connected to the world.I hope this party lasts. I was about ready to give
up. I'm still pessimistic.Anyways, here's what is working:
- Lamictal 150 mg/day
- Wellbutrin 300 mg/day
- Zyprexa 5 mg/day
- Klonopin 4 mg/dayWish me luck; I hope this doesn't slip out
of my hands. Adding in the Wellbutrin kicked
things into action. Prior to this I had either
non-respnse to wellbutrin or short lived mania.
I tried adding it to the Lamictal alone (before
zyprexa) and it made my physical pain worse.
When I took Zyprexa, I found out that the Wellbutrin
no longer caused pain in my face, so I stayed
on it and WHAMO!Anyways, thanks for everyone's support especially
AndrewB who took the time to personally communicate
with me in a compasionate way that helped me feel
much more optimistic and less misunderstood (not
to mention the wealth of information).PS. AndrewB suggested Zyprexa 1st, but I went other routes.
Damn. He was right on the money. But he didn't think
Wellbutrin would ever work, which is at this very
mokent. ;)Thanks for all the support and
good luck to everybody (including me)-John
poster:JohnX
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