Posted by Lorraine on October 11, 2001, at 9:44:01
In reply to Re: hanging in there » Lorraine, posted by shelliR on October 9, 2001, at 23:05:31
> > >[re going up on Nardil] But that means totally medicating myself with atarex and valium to sleep through the night.
I take 10 mg ambien to go to sleep and 600 neurontin to keep me asleep. It works for me. Otherwise, like you, I am up after 3 hours.
> > > How did you manage to make it to Monday? What were your coping strategies? Distraction?
> It was so hard on Saturday. It's hard to explain how much I hurt. It's so physical I felt like I couldn't stand it. But once I got through Saturday, Sunday was much easier. I had a sitting Saturday morn and it was okay, but knew my insides were not doing well. Then after, I caved in. I can't distract when I feel that awful. I took valium and sleep it off as much as I could. Sleep has always been the best way for me to handle it when I feel pain that intensely.
Sleep seems to be a good strategy for you. I hope that things are up a bit for you now.
I tried to take a nap yesterday with the Nardil slump and when I woke up was really off in a lousy place. Then I remembered that that is what happens to me when I take naps since I have been depressed. I had the same reaction on Effexor; afternoon grogginess, but if I took a nap I always woke up feeling much worse.
> > > Today was better. I worked all day and met all work goals. That is always gratifying. (and did the treadmill, although fairly slowly.) And the depression was under control.
This is quite an accomplishment. I haven't managed the exercise thing this week:-(. Know I should but haven't had the discipline for it this week. I'm up 3 lbs also. It looks like I will need to be more careful than I have been with my eating habits.
> > >I also keep reminding myself that I am very premenstrual (can tell by how swollen my body is, how much I am crying, as well as time of the month).
I read somewhere that one of the reasons they do so little research on women is b/c they make such bad subjects. They are also premenstrual, postmenstrual, ovulating, pregnant, perimenopausal or menopausal. I suppose it's true.
> > >Considering that Monday I was 90% sure that I had to go into the hospital today to stay alive, I made quite a shift.
Yep, you're moving on up. Your ability to bounce back has always been pretty amazing. My resilence is one of the things that we learn with this condition.
> Glad you are doing well.