Posted by Jady on August 2, 2001, at 23:20:38
In reply to I'm so sick of living like this, posted by Else on August 2, 2001, at 22:59:44
Else, I just started posting today. I wish I have a nickle for every time I felt just like you do right now. I just never seem to get a handle on things, and sometimes I feel like I go months with only hassles, fires to stamp out, bad news and any other number of negative things. I wake up and think if I just stay in bed at least it can't get worse. Today I'm not feeling that way. But my son left the house as soon as he saw I got a bill which indicated my last payment somehow wasn't received. Some days I can deal, but others this type of thing sends me off the deep end, drowning in self hatred. Some people are just always freaking happy! Usually I figure they're just too stupid to know how screwed up everything is. Or that I'm just a cursed, damaged loser. But then again, I'm afraid to be happy just because of meds. Doesn't that mean I'm just too medicated to see how screwed up everything is?
poster:Jady
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