Posted by Smiley on April 24, 2001, at 9:45:19
In reply to Re: withdrawal from zoloft - need advice..., posted by missy77 on April 23, 2001, at 13:25:34
Hello again Missy,
-Sometimes in situations like that you can tell who your friends really are. The ones that will sit and hold your hand through a bad night like that are really special. I have a friend who was having problems and didn't realize it, her mom realized it, and helped her. My friend, I found out later was thinking of killing herself, and her mom drove her a long way to take her to a hospital. My friend had been taking meds for depression. While my friend was in the hospital, they found out she was bipolar, and started her on medicine for it. She had been experiencing extreme highs and lows, and now on meds, she says she feels normal again.
-Sometimes in this fog we feel, we have a hard time taking care of ourselves, I've only recently learned to reach out and ask for help when I get to those points. I always thought I could take care of everything myself.
-A lot of times, it has been only my faith that will get me through some of my darkest periods. I always hope & pray that things will get better. There is a saying that goes, behind every cloud & rainstorm, is the sun & rainbow, just waiting to happen.
-I am still not certain if I like taking meds for my depression, a friend asked me wouldn't I rather get through life without them. Honestly, yes I would. But, only time will tell.Good luck, Missy, I hope you find the help you need soon.
> hello again...thank you all so much for your responses - it helps a lot to know that other people out there have experienced the same things i have (not that i'd wish those feelings on anyone!! but you know what i mean...) i think that what i have the hardest time dealing with is this...it's hard for me to tell other people not to worry about me when i worry about myself. it's almost as if i'm not in control of myself sometimes - such as the other night. on an ordinary day, i won't deny it, i think about suicide. but the guilt of thinking about what that would do to my friends and family is what keeps me from actually doing it. but the other night, i suddenly didn't care anymore, and i was ready to go. i told my best friend that i love her and to tell all my other friends and family that i love them too, just in case something happens. (she told me she'd sit up with me the entire night to make sure i didn't do anything like that - i guess my life can't be that bad if i have friends like that - she was the one i practically beat up earlier in the night!!) so even though i always thought i'd never actually do it, i don't feel so sure anymore. i'm hoping it's just a nasty side effect of the withdrawal, and that those fits of rage will go away soon. til then, it's probably best if i don't drink too much - since that seems to help set me off. i'm definitely going to start going to a therapist again, though i'm hoping i won't have to go back on meds. i like feeling like myself, no matter how nuts "myself" really is. but i know that if it gets to a point where i don't feel like life's worth living again (i've been there many times before) i won't be so stubborn as to not give some other meds a try. it was weird - i had this dream the other night that my boyfriend and i got into another fight - i stormed out of the house and he didn't follow me, and so jumped off a cliff. the feeling of falling is so vivid in my head, but the thoughts that ran through my head and the feeling that ran through my body is what is scariest to me - i wasn't at all scared of dying, all i was thinking was "aaahhh, it's finally over" - strange. ok, well thank you all again - i'll keep you posted on how things go, if my side effects subside, if i ever find a decent doc, etc. take care everyone! :-)
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