Posted by avoet on April 11, 2001, at 20:25:29
As you may have read, I had to stop the ziprasidone. I felt so weird on it. I could not shut my eyes all the way, it was so strange. Anyway, I was very disappointed because it was supposed to be really good. Anyway, I am struggling with the remorse and regret tonight. I feel stupid for constantly bringing up my fiance's ex-girlfriends. I am embarrest for all the times I brought their names up and stuff. I always have guilt and remorse for stuff. My anxiety was bad this morning but passed in the mid afternoon. When I have my "episodes", I have obsessing, anxiety and depression all at the same time. It is awful. They call this a Bipolar II "mixed state". I am bipolar II ( as clasic as you can get my therapist says!) My episodes are very very uncomfortable and are worse in the mornings. Anyway, how old are you? I am 25 and it is hard to be a young person and struggle with this stuff. My fiance does not have this problem and he does not understand very much. He goes to my therapist sometimes and she explains stuff to him. He is supportive but he has no clue what I am talking about. Do you have children? How many? Is it hard to have children when you are feeling like this? My nanny job is good but it is hard when I am having anxiety to take good care of them. How are you doing? Is your sadness over the ex any better? Do you live alone with your children? I know lots of questions but I feel like you understand how I feel - it is hard to find people who do! Anyway, just felt like talking so I hope to hear from you soon. Let me know how you are doing.
Amanda
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