Posted by Alii on February 14, 2001, at 18:57:37
In reply to Re: Oh the agony of the waiting » Alii, posted by Ron Hill on February 14, 2001, at 16:06:00
Just the past twelve hours have had such almost bearable moments interspersed with total hopelessness. I am incapacitated by this monster! I've managed to read a few of the other posts
usually the ones concerning Wb and I've noticed more than one person saying that the Wb created/worsened their anxiety. One person even posted that it gave them panic attacks. I can't bear the thought of trying anything else right now only five days back on the drugs.
I finished Styron's Darkness Visible today. One fear I experience whilst immobilized in the dark clutches is that the severity of this depression feels like it will not heal and become like that(the portrait Styron paints of his despair). Although each time I battle with this devil the rules change, each episode shares similarities yet 'surprises' me anew with its ability to reduce me to this whiny, needy, tormented soul.
Having the most difficult time keeping it simple. No one could come get me today. After finishing the three goals I set for myself for today I've spent the rest of the day pacing the house.