Posted by Kath on July 18, 2000, at 12:04:41
In reply to KATH--longggg, posted by tdaneen on July 18, 2000, at 11:46:40
Hey T. - I just caught this before I'm leaving to visit my 24-yr-old daughter (who's sweet) - don't know if I told you before. I'll answer through this & I'll be back on Friday, when I won't be so rushed.....
> Hey Kath!
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> I haven't had much time in the past week to get back to you. I hope you got it that I was trying to be funny and make a joke with the "Mom" thing (hope you weren't offended)..............It would take alot for you to offend me!!!! Although I'm 53 I feel like - oh, I don't know, maybe 34 or something!! But, hey, think of me as however you like :-)
You are so caring and I like having a "Mommy" out there somewhere for me (and everyone else here too). Just make sure you don't over extend your self, OK?
..............Yup - I tend to probably spend more time on PB than I should, but it's good for me; get's me thinking of others rather than just my troubles.
> I'm doing ok. I think I'm going to take a trip out of state this weekend. I've been invited to visit some old friend some five hours away. I think the change of scenery will be good for me. They called me from out of the blue a few weeks ago (made me cry-the brats Gotta love 'um) I think that getting away from the soon-to-be-ex, the problems on top of problems, on top of problems.... could be a nice break.
...........Sounds GREAT - congratulations for taking care of YOU.
> I also did something nice for myself last night. I bought a huge art book. Now the background story isn't very interesting, but last year I was VERY manic. I had my very first artistic experience. I was never an artistic child. I was never supported to experiment artistically. Well, I thought what the hell, right? I started sketching, and drawing, and soon, I was working in pastels.
.......That sounds like a wonderful experience...sounds like something very positive came out of a very traumatic experience.
They became my favorite medium. I haven't done much since I moved out of my husbands house, but I thought now is the right time to start again. Who ever said that nothing good ever came out of a manic phase? The drawing and sketching really became a release and alternate therapy for me. I even found out that I wasn't really all that awful. My daughter thinks I'm alright! She even shows my pictures off to whoever comes over like I show hers off. Cute, huh?
..............Neat!!! If you have access to a scanner I'd love to see some. I'm not technical, so don't know how to do any complicated computer stuff.
> I took her to daycare yesterday, and Gloria Gaynor's "I Will Survive" came on the radio. I turned it up really loud, and stopped. My daughter and I got out and danced and sang at the top of our lungs. She said "Mommy I like that song!" Translation: Mommy I like it when you are silly with me!
..............What a GREAT thing to do. I love it!! I love being silly; so does my husband & so does my daughter. I think my son sort of likes it when we do, but at 16 it's "oh boy....." Your daughter is do lucky to have a Mom who would do that.
So, I guess the huge amounts of drugs I have to take every day are working. I'm still boosting the Topamax. I have another week before I get up to full dose.
> The husband is low key for now. He might go on strike, which means I might have to get a second job to make ends meet while they are on strike. It isn't like I havent' done that before. I just don't like spending that much time away from the junior version of me (the one that I try so hard to try and make NOT like me)............I sure hope he doesn't go on strike & if he does, that it's not too long. Hey - if you're the type of Mom who does the dancing-in-the-street & sillies, don't worry about your daughter!!
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> Are there any repayments yet?................Nope - I wrote Kerry B. a somewhat detailed account of yesterday, & I also talk to Tina & Jennifer about my son-situation (I don't have the time to say much now, also if I write about it once, sometimes I don't feel like thinking about it again; sometimes it doesn't bother me.)
I really wish I could help you with your dilema. I haven't been in that situation, neither yours nor your son's. If there is any support or giggles I can provide just give a yell.
..........Keep telling me about fun stuff you do; & stuff for yourself; that helps me - to know that people are caring for themselves. The main support I need is to know that people know what I'm going through & are there for me even if it just means a prayer or a thought :-)
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> Sorry I "babbled" so much today. It's gotta be the drugs!! :^).............Hey - who said drugs are all bad eh? ;-)
By the way, I didn't find it too long at all!!Take care, thanks for posting to me & I'll probably "talk to you" on Friday.
Hugs, Kath
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