Posted by shellie on July 4, 2000, at 20:24:01
In reply to Re: Cutting episodes-All » Greg, posted by shar on July 4, 2000, at 15:01:50
For me cutting feels different (although I've stopped now, I hope). I've done it when I feel really hurt, scared, and hopeless. It's sort of my way of saying "I give up, I am not normal, and I want to stop trying." Sometimes I really get tired of having to try so hard, particularly in relationships, which are so hard and sometimes painful for me. But it seems that I never can stop trying, so maybe somehow the cutting is related to control, in that I cause my own pain, rather than being hit by something in the world.
When I cut though, I lose control. I can't always stop, and have had to go to the er. (never keep me though, luckily). So that is the main reason I have been able to stop. The last time, I felt depressed after, instead of relieved. So I keep trying to remember that.
I'm not really sure how different this is from others; I've gotten myself confused. shellie
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