Posted by NikkiT on June 16, 2000, at 9:11:49
guess it was coming.. Guess I was stupid for seeing that silver lining.. light at the end of the tunnel.
My whole coping mechanism has given in. I no longer want the things in life that are meant to keep sane / make me happy... I very seriously don't want to be with my husband any more, don't want my mates... I want my bedroom, my TV and a plentiful supply of Ribena (very good blackcurrant squash if you don't have it in the US!).. and carbonated water if possible please!
I hurt all over, my nightmares are escalating, I'm exhausted, fed up, want to hit my husband till he understands.... (not that he ever will)
Meant to be meeting friends for brunch on sunday.. typing this so I don't offend any of them... one now wants to go to a music festival afterwards, over the other side of London... he's now sulking cos none of us are up for it... So now he says, he wants to make brunch earlier (10:30 instead of 12:30), I said no cos I need my sleep, an dhe said not to be pathetic and I'be be wasting half the day. So I've cancelled.
I'm wibbling... oh well.. just had to type somewhere else instead of venting on the friend.
I hate good periods... they just let ya know how good iut can be, and the next crash is even worse than the one before.
On a better note - my feet aren't as swollen!!!
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xxx
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