Posted by medlib on May 30, 2000, at 7:11:50
In reply to Re: Hope? Fuggedabowdit!, posted by bob on May 29, 2000, at 22:09:34
Bob--
I'm really having a banner night! For the first time since high school, insomnia is actually fun. First, Shar called me "sensitive", and now I get to disagree with bob--both in one night! Delightfully unexpected.
Re hope and expectations; I have a hard time believing they're related. My *expectation*, based on >30 years of experience, is that tomorrow will be no better than today. My *hope* is that I'm wrong. (It isn't a very big hope. ;^P )
And I think living in Hope requires something even more difficult for perfectionists than energy or will--it takes RESPECT--for others, and for all the rest of the unknowns which could prove me wrong about tomorrow.
Ever since I realized that my perfectionism was no more than closet egotism, I've been trying to move away from it; Egotism is just too close to Stupidity for comfort. So far, I've found that procrastination is pretty good protection from perfectionism, but its price is so high! I'm still looking for cheaper housing.
Some day I *hope* to make it all the way to Humility. I think Respect is pretty close by there.
On the other hand, maybe your're right, after all. Hope *is* pretty small and far away--maybe I'd better aim for beautiful Eureka, CA. Almost anywhere is bound to be better than where I live now--except, perhaps, New York. (Lived there for a year and almost succeeded at suicide.)
Well, it's gotten light here; the night is over and I'm feeling very round and orange. Guess I'd better turn in.
--a metaphorical medlib
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