Posted by Vesper on May 11, 2000, at 17:40:00
Well, I went to the UCLA ER once again, this time I stayed until seen by the "psychiatric clinician" who relayed my requests for medication or at least the note I need to give the business office in order to get financial help from the university, but after making me wait 3 hours they refused to do anything for me, telling me to just keep trying to get an appointment in the outpatient clinic. This is what I have been doing for weeks, to no avail. That's why I went to the ER, I had already cut myself a few times(not seriously enough for sutures, so I didn't mention that, I just told em I was getting really self-destructive because of no treatment and withdrawal from meds because no one seems to want to help me.)
It seems that one has to do some serious damage to be taken seriously. i have a really hard time explaining just how bad I feel, I use humour or something as a defence, even when I don't want to. Sorry this was so long.
My boat is in dry dock having some fibreglass work done and new bottom paint, meanwhile I am staying on a friend's cabin cruiser a few slips down from mine. I don't know if i can take another night alone, I'm beginning to see and hear and think strange things, its' scaring me quite a bit, and no one seems to care or think it's a big deal. I'm starting to think I should just end this once and for all, after all, if UCLA gave up on me, there must be good reason.
Oh, the ECT thing...there is a button in my car marked "ECT" when you press it, you change the shifting pattern of the automatic transmission. I keep expecting to get a small jolt and memory loss when I press it...
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