Posted by jacquie on April 18, 2000, at 19:44:41
In reply to Re: Jackie, posted by liz on April 14, 2000, at 15:27:29
Liz? are you back yet???? Boohoo....
> Jackie, I got to thinking about one of the things you touched on in your notes: the years of therapy you've had and only a brief time with any medication. In my former life, before kids, I was a social worker in a hospital. I didn't have any long term relationships with patients, of course. Had I been employed in a different setting, where I might have had ongoing counseling with a client and had I found that we were essentially at square one after all that time, I would have fired myself!! Cutting to the chase here, I'm am so glad you are going to seek some other help, a different doctor, whatever. It seems almost like criminal neglect for you to have sought help, gone through all this counseling, and still be suffering from the same pain and to the same degree that brought you in for help so long ago. Please don't feel guilty about trying some medication and don't think of it as a crutch! My doctor repeatedly told me that it wasn't some personality deficiency on my part, but my brain chemistry, and I remind myself of that almost daily. Obviously, some of have had a tough go, have had a lot of pain and disappointment, so we need to remind ourselves that the medicine is but a tool in our recovery. Its quite possible that you will be in a position after getting some help from medication to deal more effectively with all your demons from the past and you will be able to do it better and faster than with counseling alone. So please, make that a top priority! I think its imperative that we are with doctors in whom we have faith and trust. In fact, its the primary thing in a recovery, IMHO. I also wanted you to know that I will be away from my computer (boohoo!) for over a week due to some R&R in Florida with the family; its our spring break this coming week. I'll be thinking about you and all the nice people on this board; I hope when I come back I hear that you have found a psch. doc with whom you can continue to get better! Take care, Liz (p.s. I think there is a link from this site to a list of doctors who specialize in mood disorders; maybe there will be one there who is near you.)