Posted by Ant-Rock on March 29, 2000, at 8:12:59
In reply to Re: AntRock :AndrewB, posted by DC on March 29, 2000, at 1:06:40
> >It's hard when you aren't making much progress. But I've always felt more motivation to pull myself out of my worst depressions. When I reach the bottom something motivates to do something; I start getting nervous; Whereas when I'm just sort of blah I don't feel motivated to do anything. Sometimes an honest-to-goodness freak-out is like a good kick in the pants. Am I making any sense at all?
What you stated makes a lot of sense. I used to get that same "rock-bottom" sense of desperation/urgency to make a change, or try a different approach. Almost like a survival mechanism that prevents one from shriveling up in a corner.
To be honest though, the anhedonia/fatigue thats been so prevalent for so long has taken away the ability to "feel" this sense of nervous, positive energy you speak of. Hopefully the dopamine oriented meds I am trying now, will give me a taste of "aliveness", and will ignite a spark to "feel" that something which gives "you" that same motivation.
Thank you DC for sharing your thoughts, and I sincerely appreciate your advice.