Posted by jd on March 1, 2000, at 0:20:28
In reply to PLEASE JUST TELL ME WHAT TO DO, posted by VESPER on February 29, 2000, at 23:17:04
It sounds like you already have a good plan for what would be best for you to do--Meet with your therapist tomorrow and say more or less what you've said (quite effectively) to us just now. Overall, your situation may be better than it seems when you're feeling your worst (like now, perhaps), but you're absolutely right that you could use a different environment to help break this cycle and start getting some matters worked out. We really are all behind you, even those of us who haven't been chiming in much... Things *will* get better.
Take good care,
> Sorry, didn't mean that as a yell. I can't seem to follow all the different threads about me. I agree with whomever said that contacting someone offlist is a good idea maybe when things get this far. I'm sorry if I missed anyone's post. I'm crying right now because I feel stuck and lost, and I'm going to tell my psychiatrist tomorrow I want to go into the hospital to break this horrible cycle. Maybe all your suggestions to the contrary of my thinking convinced me that maybe I'm not so rational or anything and need to put myself in someone else's hands for awhile. I am just so scared and lonely...Whatever you all want me to do about staying or not staying here, I will do. I cannot seem to exist without causing harm. I am so sorry. The people here are almost beyond belief in their compassion, humour, and genuine human insight.
> I can honestly say I have never felt so loved, and that may seem pathetic, but it is true. Thank you all so much.