Posted by jennyann on February 26, 2000, at 13:33:50
hello everyone..its been a long time. I have recently been hospitalized for depression... I have never been so "low" before. slowly I am accepting the limitations of my illness and finding reasons to remain alive. the hardest part is just acknowledging that I am ill...I have always functioned in "perfection" mode. I ignored, self medicated and avoided my depression for a long long time. and now, despite years and years of intensive therapy and what I thought was the pinnacle of my own "self actualization", here i am. so, my reason for this post, is just to get some feedback about anger. I have done a lot of work around grief, and Ive been sad, and mourned my own childhood etc. it is time now to release the rage...and for all of my skills and abilities, I find this the hardest thing I have ever been faced with.
thanks for listening