Posted by Cam W. on February 21, 2000, at 3:53:33
In reply to Re-Zyprexa, posted by Jesse on February 21, 2000, at 0:09:40
> Again-thank you. It means alot to have someone knowledgeable about meds etc when I'm going through this transition. I'm worried/obsessing about Zyprexa. You're messsage was encouraging. I think it might help. Ican deal withthe weight gain. HOWEVER-Sometimes I like my hyperactivity. I'm an exrecise addict (I'm a serious runner-60-80 miles a week. WillZyprexa take away my "good energy"? I need my energy to exercise(exercise helps more than anything). Will I still have good moods when I am funny and able to articulate and communicate to people and be productive? Will my creativitybe adversely affected by Zyprexa? I hope it will be something that might help me be calm and in control, but still able to access these qualities about myself I like. I don'tjust want to feel sedated and drugged and have my thinking slowed too much. Will Zyprexa do this? Sometimes I depend on the "good" days even thought they can get out of control. Will Zyprexa help me sleep so I don't have to depend on trazadone and klonopin?
> I know these are ridiculous concerns given how impaired I can get but in some weird way I'm afraid of change. I obsess and can't make any decision. I have a trust issue with psychiatrists (based on a recent bad experience.
> Answers to any of these questions will help make up my mind on what seems to be a do or die decision. Please help. I trust you're opinion. You convey knowledge and confidence about meds. My MD just hands me scripts and says they will help. I need more info than that to trust him and have faith , otherwise I'll obsess.
Jesse - This is out of my realm of expertice, but why are you running so extensiveley? Is this part of the disease or is this part of the compulsion? I really seriously, that a man of you motivation could have a body fat level worth mentioning. Is this running a little obsessive? Your energy level will not decrease, only increase. You may be out of contol with with your "Fanatical Fitness"- What is your target, or do you have one. (There are no old triathaletes). The Zyprexa may take away some of these urges to run, and THIS IS A GOOD THING. SEE a therapist and probably a psychiatrist. Join the rest of us and channel that extra energy into somthing that can be done for the good of humanity.
Clean a ditch, Help build a house for those less fortunate or many other local activities; help on projects that need to be done. Channel your energy into the good of society, not just for yourself. Believe me you will be a much greater person for it and will be helping society in ways you never dreamed possible. One person can make a big imprint. Sincerley - Cam W.