Posted by medlib on February 18, 2000, at 2:54:03
In reply to Re: Vesper--Go to the hospital, posted by vesper on February 18, 2000, at 1:08:44
> Thank you everyone...I talked to my pdoc and she agreed to let me change meds if I can't take how I feel, I see her in a week and she said to not stop abruptly, to take one wellbutrin sr 150 and 600mg of neurontin until I see her. I was taking 300mg w. and 1200mg neur., I have had no wellbutrin in a couple of days, and 600mg neurontin. I can't bring myself to tell anyone how bad I really feel because I am really really scared...about hospitalization, etc. I would really rather be free to exercise my options, suicide or cutting, etc.
Vesper-
I believe that you need all the support that you can muster--pharmacological and emotional--to traverse this "Valley of the Shadow." Please don't let anyone pressure you into discussing painful topics until your meds are a source of support, not stress. If you can't trust your pdoc with your suicidal thoughts because she might be professionally obliged to involuntarily commit you, find someone else you CAN trust with this pain. This group is a good start, but try to find someone available when you need it most--maybe Suicide Hotline or Emotions Anonymous. Pain that can't be relieved can be survived if it is shared.
BTW, I don't believe that the Afterlife (if there is one) has any options--if you don't like it, you don't get to leave.
Morbid Thought #2: If you had ever spent time in a rehab hospital (as I have), you would realize that dying is NOT the worst thing that can happen to you (or an Innocent Other) on a "DonorCycle". Be careful--if not for yourself, for others.The part of you that is reaching out WANTS to live; please don't foreclose that person's options. Hang tough-
medlib
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