Posted by Carolyn on February 11, 2000, at 23:07:19
In reply to Re: Bad solutions, posted by michael on February 11, 2000, at 22:26:21
> > Hi Carolyn,
> > Did you tell your doctor about your urges to cut and drink? Perhaps if he knew he would be more willing to try a different med. In the meantime, I know things are hard for you. Try forgetting about yourself by doing something less harmful, i.e. music, movies? I hope it isn't too simplistic, but movies can be a great escape. Well wishes.
> > Cass
>
> I agree w/Cass - make sure your doc knows what's going on with you! If he knows where you're at, hopefully he'll be a bit more open-minded...?
> Good Luck, and hang in there!
> michael
No,I haven't been very good at communicating with my doctor, I guess. I tend to minimize a bit. My mother suffered from depression when I was young...before depression was well understood. I remember she was always accused of "just wanting attention" or "making things up". So I tend to fear doing the same thing. Especially since, as is typical I know, I feel better in the evening. Then I wonder if I am imagining the whole thing.
Talk about a merry-go-round. I will try to do better at being honest with the doctor. Thanks so much for your support. This web site is great...helps you remember you are not alone, and you are not crazy! I also struggle a great deal with guilt...guilt about causing worry for others, especially my husband, and guilt about not accomplishing as much as I usually do. I know this is "normal", but still a problem for me. Hope you are succeeding in your own struggles. On a positive note, I had a friend say what a shame I had to go through all this. I responded...well, if not me, who should have to go through this! My answer to the "why me" question! I would also be interested in hearing from anyone who has trouble dealing with faith issues when depressed. I am fortunate to belong to a supportive church, but have had some bad experiences over the years with well-meaning but ill-informed folks who have the attitude that lack of faith is a cause of depression. Thanks again.
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