Posted by Janice on January 9, 2000, at 22:50:44
In reply to Re: Obsessing.., posted by Noa on January 9, 2000, at 10:18:59
hi everyone,
A few days ago, this idea...that when all is said and done, I am essentially addicted to intensity ... crystalized itself inside my head. and I'm pretty certain that this is true
So this is called obsessing. If I am guilty of anything in life, it's being oblivious to the obvious.
My life seems to me, at this point, to be made up of a series of crisis. This intensity of my emotional life must be what makes me feel I am alive. a type of self-medication.
I have a therapist but by the time I see him, this current crisis will have passed and I will be onto another one. I will almost have completely forgotten this one by my next session; and that's what seems to bring to Babble-land. Trichotillomania, which is a type of OCD, is one of my diagnosis.
Yes, it's being able to catch your self-talk and obsessive thinking that is the tricky part. This far, I have not been unable to do either. I have read Feeling Good, and it did help with my anxiety. I honestly don't know how to catch my self-talk and obsessive thoughts.
Noa, yes, my brother was reminding me of my father, towards whom, I have barn-filled amounts of anger stored up inside of me. I overlooked this completely.
and finally, when all is said and done, and I know these emotional emergencies are what make me feel alive, I still remain a complete mystery to myself.
When I lost my job, I felt extremely good about myself. My self-esteem was at it's highest while I was being canned, and for the rest of that day. I have no idea why.
Thanks for all your great insights, Janice.
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