Posted by shar on May 18, 2004, at 18:27:48
In reply to Re: meekly waving hello » shar, posted by tina on May 18, 2004, at 13:34:19
T,
Well, it doesn't sound so much like a whiny diatribe as a description of what's going on. It sounds like very tough times, and coming at you in different directions. All of those things are very high on the 'stressor' list!And, so demoralizing to deal with if they aren't especially what we want (the job, the move, etc).
Me? I'm exceedingly suicidal these days. Got my method worked out. I've written my notes (but I'm gonna stick around long enough to edit them so they don't suck), all I need is the means, which I will have to obtain.
I've always thought suicide (like revenge) is a dish best served up cold. That means, doing it when I'm suicidal isn't all that good. However, after analysis of the last 52 years, if I reach the conclusion of 'it's time to go' then that's when I do it. I'm pretty much there, but I'm having to avoid people's birthdays (like my nieces have birthdays in May and June and my SO has one in August---dammit!!). Since my dad died two days before my sister's birthday, it's cast a pall over the whole month for all of us. So, I'm trying to be sensitive, but it's damn inconvenient. My best window was April, and I blew it.
Oh well, another one will come around.
However, I do believe you are too young to be doing that! Gotta wait til you're 50 to do the deed. Before then (especially nowadays) miracles can happen. Like Judy Tanuta (sp?) says, 'It could happen...'
Write more! And you don't need to be meek!
Shar
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