Posted by Racer on May 10, 2004, at 16:22:21
In reply to Strolling down memory lane..., posted by finelinebob on May 10, 2004, at 11:48:12
It reminded me of what I went through in my last major depressive episode, with a really terrible doctor. At first, it felt as though only the names had changed, that nothing would ever go right for me, that I could never find the help I need. You know, just confirmed my worst fears. I was almost suicidal -- well, OK, I was suicidal, but that was true before reading the posts.
Then I remembered that, in between, something had worked well enough that I could meet a man who felt like my twin, form a relationship, move to a new place, find several jobs -- some of which I kept for some time, all but one of which I left voluntarily -- start working on actually living. Something changed, and that same something might change again. Sure, I've been here before, but maybe I can get back there again.
So, it's definitely an experience. Mixed, in some ways, but overall positive for me.
It is strange, though, isn't it?