Posted by allisonm on March 25, 2004, at 12:44:34
In reply to I'm listening, too, posted by shar on March 24, 2004, at 21:28:57
You're asking tough questions...
I have found that I carried on even when I didn't want to be here for several reasons.
- as Shar said, for my cats, for my friends
- as Racer said, because I didn't have a good exit strategy
- but also because I guess I still held out some hope that someday something would change and things would get better.
Over time, I held onto my cats and my friends for strength as I waited and waited and waited. Eventually, my life changed (or better put, I changed my life) and my pdoc and I were able to find a cocktail after 5 years that finally gave some relief.
I know it's hard. There were many times in the past when I didn't want to be here either. You have heard the pep talks from others and you both have given pep talks to people like me. I don't want to lecture or sound like a broken record.
Please try to remember that as time goes by, situations change, and you can change situations. Eventually, things can fall into place and the world isn't such a crappy place afterall. I know you hate it here right now, but please don't give up.