Posted by tina on July 24, 2003, at 19:50:43
In reply to am I more dangerous to myself now? Or less?, posted by Racer on July 24, 2003, at 19:30:16
I'm sorry you have to wait. I can imagine it's agonizing no matter how you want it to come out.
I'm always hoping for something to come along and take me out without my having to do it but I wouldn't wish it on someone else. I wish I could help but in your situation, I would feel the same way you do. Perhaps you'll find a place within yourself that just says "oh well, whatever happens, happens" It may be a coping mechanism but it offers respite sometimes. Emotions just close down and you simply go through the motions of living.
I do hope the mammogram shows nothing but I fully understand a part of you wanting it to.
all I can do is send you strength and a hope for good things to come
take care Racer,