Posted by Sean on August 30, 1999, at 12:05:40
In reply to Hi Sean, posted by Cynthia on August 29, 1999, at 0:27:35
> Glad to hear you had a good holiday. I was hiking in the Rockies yesterday, what fun.
> Esma's last name is Teodosievski, and she has a web page, but as far as I know, no music to buy yet. From what I understand, this is due to initially the communism in Eastern Europe and then the war in Macedonia. I think I'd love that movie, Lacho Drum, and will try to get to an artsy video store sometime soon.
> I hope you find a good mood stabilizer. Lithium made you gain weight right? God, it works so good for me. I'm a little bit curious, as far as you knkow, do you have other disorders too? I'm curious because I have so many, but consider my cyclothymia and SAD to be my main disorders, sort of like the parent disorders that made coming to life so much easier for my other ones.
> Hope you're good,
Hey Cynthia -
I'm coming off Zo right now - that stuff lands
me on the moon, but after about a month, I really
need to stop it. I also have panic disorder, but
this has mellowed/changed over the years into
something that more resembles a funky siezure of
some sort, as in, my heart no longer races, but
I get these shooting flashes at my temples and
a sense of horrible dread. I also get these
olfactory hallucinations and brain fogs from time
to time which really lay me out for a few weeks
a year. I think all of these things are realted
to the cyclothymia/bp II thing because they are
very similar (in many ways) to temporal lobe
I went to a neurologist about two years ago and
it was interesting. He said my symptoms were very
epilepsy-like except that they express over a
period of weeks at relatively low grade rather
than in a single burst.
My p-doc tried to get me on depakote, but I
read the PDR and was scared by the side effects.
What really worked the best was amitriptyline
and lithium together - I felt good and stable on
that combo. But I was also born with a heart
valve defect, so aside from the weight gain, these
drugs gave me arrythmias (very different from
anxiety) which got steadily worse over time.
Then came the SSRI era (last few years) and I've
just been bouncing on-and-off to treat depression.
But it is frustrating and I think making my
So there it is, my brain on a platter! I'll keep
you posted. Take care and be well.