Posted by JJ on November 1, 1998, at 21:37:05
I have been taking 300mgs Wellbutrin, 300mgs Trazodone, 25mg Cytomel for 8 years. The doctor added .25mg Alprazolam for my anxiety/panic attacks--I do not hear alarm to go to work, have physical symptoms, and panic when I think of going somewhere. I had taken Alprazloam for one month in 1993. That is the first time that I have never been afraid or thought I was going to die or did not think of committing suicide since I was 4 years old. I did have three head injuries in 1980 when I developed agoraphobia.
The doctor took me off the Alprzolam after 1 month and my anxiety gradually returned. Now, have totally regressed to hurting myself, hate myself, and acted out enough at my job that I am on paid suspension. I am reacting physically (heart, etc.) just thinking about returning to any work.
My doctor increased the Alprazolam to .50 mg a day but I am still not responding. He says that I don't want to be better. I asked about a change in medication. He said I have tried enough, I just need psychotherapy. I have been in therapy since 1988. And, I had understood much of what I can do to effectively work, but I am beginning to lose all hope.
What can I do or use to be better? I would really like to feel that feeling of being able to do something--just leave the house without my irrational fears. I have and do use medication as administered although my doc said I did not when I went to see him after the breakdown. I've tried seeing another doc, but he said there was nothing he could do.
Please help.
poster:JJ
thread:1021
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